I loved yesterday…it’s Poshpalett’s day out…we went to Bugis in the ferst place…by bus…I was wf Sap…Ju n Yayat…Shai alone…solo..emo…so sad she…hee…Sap Shai n me gut sleepy…serious siah…d trip like…is like u cn shower until ur anti-germs u noe…sooooo long…

Den wen we reach Bugis…go in circles…den go buy food…take MRT den go Marina Pierre…wah…so fun siah…over thre….we sit around…roll…dance…run(padahal tempat org romantik2 she…mcm tk salh gtuk…)…explore(though thre’s nthn thre)sit thre…camwhore!!!so many pics she… enjoy until at night…camwhore again…den… hah…hre comes the most fuckingly stupidly un part lah…we played a stupid game whre every of our dance members were suppose to do smthyn to each n every other dance members…so sian she but fun…dats all lah….but the trip n everythyn whre long…it took d whole day but fun…eleborate only…too long lah…dun expect me to tell evrysingle letter ryte???Heh…

~~~~~~~Aaphot~~~~~~~
Yesterday I had a performance of malay dance at school fer the honours day…finally…the malay dance is over…at ferst…I tot everything…I mean fer dance…isa gonna over oready…skali gut the evg dance performance…after exams…wat the….k lah…I’m ok but I’m tired…

After the honest day…me n my frends ate a lot of food…cuz it’s nut eaten n thre’s still so much more…so we packed them home…n ate outside school…hehe…joke here n thre…send Nabillah n Zul home ferst wf Yayat...den send Yayat…I send him until the traffic light near his block onlyden I go cuz scared later gut his mother at the corridor watchin…den I go…by the tyme my cigarette oso finish oready…I threw it aside den saw my ex-teacher hu taught me civics n moral last year…luckily I finish smoking oready…I looked at her…gave her the pissed off look den looked down…she cross by oready den I looked up back…sian neh

Last nyte…I fought wf my family…they push me sooo much…so hard…pilling me up wf chores…thre2…my mom…naggin ryte now…ass…I feel like killin my self siah…she made me loose my mood…so sian neh…den yesterday…everyone…n I mean everyone…pushed me so much…they only think fer themselves…n dun think bout other’s feelings…den I cnnot take it…I went into the room n made 3 slices of deep cut on my left arm…a lot of blood flow down…I smoke…spray the room wf perfume…den take my ‘anti drugs/know drug’…open up a page after the final update and wipe my blood on it…den I ryte things beside it…so ass ryte…

N I gut to know dat my guy flirted wf other guy…lik ass ryte…fucker…I hate him laa…he’s makin me suffer u noe…feel like breakin up wf him…but dun 1…but 1…but dun 1…I sacrifice n did sooo much fer him…but it doesn’t seem like he is doin so fer me…juz like I’ve said before…he is such a coward laa…cnnot fyte back…nvr use his brains…he is juz like he’s frends…all no brain 1…all cnnot stand on their own 2 feet…

K lah k lah…inuf insulting oready…I really gut to go ryte now...do chores den go out meet Ju Shai n Sap…I hate my life ryte now…n I hate people hu made me suffer soo much n pisses me off big tyme

~~~~~~~Aaphot~~~~~~~
Boring day fer today…2 days …no 3 day of not inuf sleep…very tired leh…juz now send Mira home wf Yayat…we a new played a game..a game whre we were not allowed to say ‘Seah style’ or anythyn bout her…n hu ever does kena forfeit…and it comes to no use…CUZ W/O SEHA STYLE NTHN WUD BE ALIVE!!!. Fun seh…but lame…but fun…but lame…waaat ony…send Mira home den my turn wf Yayat…he was like…eh*pointin to sumthyn*…I din see…but instead I went…”ouh…I must see???”…n he was like…”yeah”…den I ask…”whre/what???”…den he show…I lokked…n den I was like…”ooouuhhh”…LAME SIAAA…BCUZ NO SEHA STYLE…HAA!!!…

Kk inuf…I got home…shower…send my bro to bus stop cuz rainin…heavily…it’s like rain…no rain…rain…no rain…haa…den…go smoke…got home…my mom was like…”eh…why smell smoke??? U got smell???”…den I was like…”yar”..haa…fucker siaa…OOPPSS…I’VE JUZ SHOUT OUT TO MY DAD ‘PERVERT!’!!…cuz he wanna try ta see wat I’m doin den I covered d comp’s screen…I said to him to respect my privacy…den he said dat in diz house…thre will be NO privacy…siaaakk jeek…den I attacked him sayin dat might as well he shower wf d door open ryte…den he was like “yes”…siak aarrh…dats wen I called him a pervert…

Yar…as I was sayin…I was “yar”…den entered…stand infront of d door fer awhile to make the smell go away…stupid she…den go eat…eat eat eat…sleep…fer like 1 hr 45 mins since 6 p.m…den woke up wf dried n painful eyes..funny thyn…wen I sleep…cn still hear d livin room’s surroundings…den…wen I woke up…myself…I wok…my mom was like…”eh…I smell smoke”..inmmy heart…I was like…AGAIN…conclusion…smell of smoke still stickin on my shirt…den she told me to check if thre’s fire still on in d kitchen as I was in d kitchen…den I was like no…DUHNESS…haa…

Dats all lah…I nid to do my lit homework…typin ony…I love it…I love lit…k inuf…but not 100% lah…I still love history u noe…but I din get…cuz I’m ok wf lit…k bye…Aaphot signin off…

~~~~~~~Aaphot~~~~~~~
Boring day fer today...nthn much to do...hang out wf frens...smoke...blabla...n blabla...den go home...do my art fer d guest of honour...N IT'S NOT DOOONNEE!!!!!!!!!!(I was chosen specially n thys???uh...sry to hurt all d other art students...hee)I lied to Miss Pushpa dat it's done whre as I've juz started...but now...it's almost don laa...abit happy...but not so happy...IT'S STILL UNPAINTED!!! but it's ok...it will be done wfin minutes...Luuuucky to day no homework...heee...*tweece*...or is it '*tweese*'...or...'*twist*'...or...or...uh...nvm....anyways...milo is nut botherin me...i dun gif a boob job nor a nose or stomach or ass...w8...is thre such thyngs as stomach or ass job??? HAAAA!!! Kk...inuf is inuf...too much...SEHA STYLE BTOL...HAAA...only we ppl understand...we ppl as in ppl dat me n yayat hangs out wf...heee...*tweece*(again)...or is it '*tweese*'...or...'*twist*'...or...or...uh...nvm...dats all...
Note:...I can even live w/o u cuz i still have my frends wf me n they care fer me...understand me...n believe in me in changing...I luv them better den luv u...(Luvs to:yayat,mira,farah,nifa,amira,aishah,far,dewi,ayu)
[specially:juju,shai,sap,yana.]

~~~~~~~AaphOt~~~~~~~
Why must it happen this way??? I hate my life…being like this…being used…being dumped…do people even care??? Well guess wat??? I dun care…I dun even care of wat people think cuz they only think fer themselves n I hate them…

C’mon laa…I can stand on my own two feet…u wanna fyte…lets fyte…bring as many people as u want…wat makes u think I wud loose…to think again…why r u guyz afraid to face me wen I was thre but was brave enuf to say werds on the phone…well guess wat??? Ur werds dun scare me…not even abit…I am totally ready fer everything n if u think u can take me down easily…u better think twice becuz I might look like how I am bgut u do not noe wat’s inside of me…

People have been givin me dat stare…like…I noe u r…kinda stare…they suck laa…assholes…bitches…jerks…bunch of fraks…I noe I’m popular in school…but I dun think ur stare is acceptable…

My guy suck…I’m sory but it’s the truth…he cnnot even protect me…even cnnot even fyte back…n guess wat…he dun noe how to use his brains…frends r people hu care n understand…if ur frebds r like dat my dear…they shud be ok with us…but nooo…they r not…instead…they r tryin their best to let u stay away from me…c’mon…how my fends can be ok??? They’re fine with mi…but at the same tyme…try their best to let mi change…ur frend chose to take the shortcut instead…which is try to scare me with their unscaredable werds…I’ve had inuf of thys…my frends were shock to see u doin nuthyn when I passed by u n ur bestiez wateva fuck…dats it…

As fer my frends….diz is wat I’ve gotta say…after him…thre wud not be anyone else…cuz no one can replace his luv…n to find out…I find it a true luv…if he really luvs me…he wud sacrifice anythyn fer mi juz like wat I did fer him…I feel like I’m bein used n cheated…

Dats all u guyz…n 1 more advise…before getting attached…rain some qns on d guy ferst to see if he’s true to ya…don’t make any mistake like mine cuz u’ll regret ur whole life…trust mi…
~~~~~~~AaphOt~~~~~~~